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02 December 2010 @ 03:27 am
And I Wonder if I Ever Cross Your Mind  
Title: And I Wonder if I Ever Cross Your Mind
Characters: Jensen, Jared, Chris
Pairings: J2
word count: 704, short but sweet.
Summary: Based off of Lady Antebellum's song 'Need You Now', Sad!fic

“Hey you’ve reached Jared, for some reason or another I can’t answer my phone right now, so leave a message after the beep!”

Jensen sighed raggedly.

“Hey Jay… It’s uh, its Jensen. Its about a quarter after one in the morning… I miss you…and uh, Im really lonely without you. I know your not going to call me back but I guess it just makes me feel better to think that you maybe at least listen to the messages I leave you…. I miss you so much, and I’m sorry.”

Jensen hung up the phone.

“Hey you’ve reached Jared, for some reason or another I can’t answer my phone right now, so leave a message after the beep!”

“Hey Jared. Its Jensen again. I know I promised I wouldn’t call anymore, but I just lost control… God I need you so badly. I don’t know how I can live without you by my side.... It’s really late, so I guess I’m going to try and sleep. I will always love you… Goodnight.”

“Hey you’ve reached Jared, for some reason or another I can’t answer my phone right now, so leave a message after the beep!”

“Hi… me again… I found a picture of us together today… made me cry. Uhm, I’m a little drunk, whiskey, you know… God I just miss you so much. I can’t get you off my mind… I’m always wondering if your thinking about me too… You know, sometimes I just stare at the door wishing you would walk through it, but I know you won’t. I miss you Jay.”

“Hey you’ve reached Jared, for some reason or another I can’t answer my phone right now, so leave a message after the beep!”

“Everyone keeps saying that its unhealthy for me to keep calling you. I know it is, and Im sorry I just cant help it. I need you so bad baby. Im all alone and I need you now. Fuck I miss you… Im so fucking sorry Jay.”

“Jensen?” Chris called, walking into Jensen’s bedroom. It didn’t look like Jensen had moved since it had happened. He was still in the same pajama’s he was in two weeks ago. His room was a mess and Jensen looked like death warmed over.

“Jen, come on. You can’t stay here forever. I know you loved him, but you need to get back on track kid.”

Jensen mumbled something.


“You said loved. I still love him Chris. No past tense. It will never be past tense.”

Chris sighed.

“How many messages have you left him? Don’t lie to me either Jen, I know you have.”

Jensen whimpered and looked down.

“All together or just today?”

Chris sighed again. “Get showered and dressed.”

Jensen groaned out “Why?”

Chris just crossed his arms. “Because we are gunna go see him Jen.”

Jensen shook his head. “No, no Chris I can’t.”

Chris just made Jensen get up and get ready anyway. When he was finished, he looked nervous.

“Should…should I bring him something? Flowers?”

Chris smiled. “Yeah Jen, we can get flowers on the way, he would probably like that.”

Jensen got more nervous the closer they got. When Chris pulled in, Jensen didn’t want to get out of the car.

“Come on Jen, you gotta do this.”

Jensen sighed and nodded. He got out of the car and walked across the grass. He stopped when he got to Jared.

“Hey, uhm, Im really sorry I haven’t come to see you yet. I just couldn’t, it hurt to much. Chris dragged me out of the house today though…so I guess this is his doing. I uh, I hope you got my messages. Also, I brought you flowers…I hope you like them. I wanted to say that uhm, that I will always love you, and that I miss you.”

A single tear rolled down Jensen’s cheek as he placed the flowers on the ground in front of the polished stone that read:

Jared Tristan Padalecki

19 July 1982 – 1 December 2010

May Angels Watch Over You.
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naeddnanaeddna on December 2nd, 2010 09:37 am (UTC)
you broke my heart *sobs* there's an ending i never saw coming.
Samspnfreak15 on December 2nd, 2010 07:42 pm (UTC)
I wanted to warn for it, but I also didn't want to ruin the story <3

thanks for the comment
aelia1980aelia1980 on December 2nd, 2010 10:36 am (UTC)
God, how sad was that... Good it's already the December 2nd, so it didn't really happen. Death!fics always give me the creeps and whenever I read them I somehow expect that something really bad happens to the boys straight away. Crazy, I know but I can't help it.

Anways, sad but sweet. I loved it that Jensen left him messages on his mailbox, hoping that he'll hear them wherever he is. *sniff*
Samspnfreak15 on December 2nd, 2010 07:44 pm (UTC)
I actually wrote this back in April, so the original date on the tombstone was '25 April 2010' but I wanted to bring the date up so it looked more recent.

Thanks for your comment <3
Lexiim_a_fake_421 on December 2nd, 2010 01:28 pm (UTC)
You made my eyes rain. ;_;
But this was amazing, and I love it.
Samspnfreak15 on December 2nd, 2010 07:44 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Im sorry I made you cry, but that was kind of the purpose of the story too...

<3 thank you
loustat: Dean's Tears Of Sorrow By..loustat on December 2nd, 2010 02:17 pm (UTC)
Death fic! I know u said this was going to be a sad fic, but I was so unprepared.

Good job either way 'cause this difinitely touched my heart.
Samspnfreak15 on December 2nd, 2010 07:45 pm (UTC)
Re: Noooo!
I said this already in another comment, I wanted to warn for it, but I didn't want to ruin the story.

<3 Im sorry, and Im glad it touched your heart
engel82 on December 2nd, 2010 05:08 pm (UTC)
Beautiful and heartbreaking ♥

Samspnfreak15 on December 2nd, 2010 07:45 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much
Gerigeri on December 2nd, 2010 05:19 pm (UTC)
I'm with the first commenter, i never saw that one comming. now if you'll excuse me i need my kleenex.O.0
Samspnfreak15 on December 2nd, 2010 07:46 pm (UTC)
*gives you kleenex*

It was supposed to be unexpected <3

thanks for the comment
deansgirl7107deansgirl7107 on December 2nd, 2010 07:29 pm (UTC)
Gosh!!!! This was so sad and heartbreaking *sobs*

It was beautifully sad.
Samspnfreak15 on December 2nd, 2010 07:46 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much, that was what I was going for <3
Write_in_Redwrite_in_red on December 2nd, 2010 08:09 pm (UTC)
Wow. I didn't see that one coming. Oh, it was a knife through my heart. Poor Jensen.

The fact that Jared is gone makes the messages Jensen leaves so much more painful... *sniffs*

Very nice.
Samspnfreak15 on December 2nd, 2010 09:31 pm (UTC)
I know <3

thank you for the comment
bornof_sorrow: smiley sambornof_sorrow on December 2nd, 2010 10:24 pm (UTC)
*cries buckets* in a good way.
Samspnfreak15 on December 8th, 2010 09:48 pm (UTC)
aww thanks :)
I breathe therefore I writesandymg on December 3rd, 2010 02:21 am (UTC)
Very sad. I missed the sad!fic warning. So, um, yeah. I started suspecting but really was still sucker punched even with that. Well done.
Samspnfreak15 on December 8th, 2010 09:48 pm (UTC)
Im sorry you missed the warning!

And thanks for the comment, Im glad you liked it.
Haileyaurora999 on December 3rd, 2010 07:06 am (UTC)
Wow... it's not often I find myself unexpectedly crying.
Samspnfreak15 on December 8th, 2010 09:50 pm (UTC)
Gosh, what a compliment :D

Thank you <3
speedcat93: IMTOD Dean & Johnspeedcat93 on December 4th, 2010 11:07 am (UTC)
That's beautiful and yet so sad :(
Beautiful description, <3 it !
Samspnfreak15 on December 8th, 2010 09:50 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much :D
smash86: J2 B&Wsmash86 on June 17th, 2011 10:16 am (UTC)
*sobs*...OK so I just dropped by to PM you and I slipped into this fic...*pouts*...and now I think I truly hate you...in a very I-can't believe-you-made-me-pout- kinda way cause SERIOUSLY how can you cram soooo much damn emotion in so few words!!!!!!!!!

This was awesome...and yeah you killed my Jared and I kinda hate you for that but still...this was fucking awesome!

A pre-quel to come...maybe?!?!


Edited at 2011-06-17 10:24 am (UTC)
Samspnfreak15 on June 17th, 2011 11:13 am (UTC)
Thanks! I actually like my emotional writing better cause it gets more of an effect out of people.

I've never actually thought of doing a prequel of this fic. Mostly cause I feel like there wouldnt be to much of a story, I feel like I could take any one shot and say "this was there relationship before"

His death is supposed to be sudden, like maybe a car accident or something, so it wouldnt be a sic!Jared fic or anything.

I dunno, I'll think about it XD
smash86smash86 on June 17th, 2011 11:25 am (UTC)
Don't underestimate yourself..the way you wrote the connection between J2 from Jensen's pov in this fic was powerful enough to warrant a "how they were before" kinda story. Yeah there are heaps of "this was there relationship before" oneshots but a lot of them suck!

*laughs*...I'm just saying...cause you rocked my world with this one!